Remember this?
“for the girl with the colgate ad smile
do u think i can be there to take care of u? do u think i can put your importance first before mine? do u think i can be there for you when u need me?i can be all of that, y cant i? i was all of that for u for the last few days. true? no? correct me if i am wrong. true enough, i admit i cannot be the best for u, not even second or third, in fact not in your top ten list if i were to be honest. i guess maybe… its just time for me to change the way i am, actually, that was the first thing that came to me when i got to know u, and all of that was only triggered by one act of yours, you accepted the way i am, true enough i was not honest enough to u from the beginning. but if i let u go rite now, will i ever know if the risk which i am about to take will do me any good? there was no one who attracted me not because of their looks but because of their personality, and true enough there are some things about which i do not really favor, but thats beside the point with me, for me, i believe that every individual has the right to have a chance to change, including me. will u be there for me when i need someone to talk to thru the bad times? will u be there to hold my hand when i face the challenges ahead?? will you?? the only turn off i get with you is.. you will be leaving for US in 2 years time. i never do trust in long distance relationship either, what are we gonna do if we fall in love so badly b4 you leave? what am i to do? what are WE to do? just leave and let the love fade off? equal as you, i am afraid to hurt someone and get hurt the way i did before, i know the feeling, it eats your from the inside, it kills you on lonely nights, it burns passion for love away, it kill the individual. what are we to do when we look at the big picture? at the long term run? are we meant to be? is this what they call the test in life? its difficult to escape from the situation we are in rite now, i admit, i did and still do find u special. and i know it well enough that you will be the biggest liar if u said u wanted me to forget you and just move on, i guess maybe… risks are worth taking for a reason, for reasons like this, for people like YOU, for situations like THIS, and for the results which are yet to come. but if were to try anything from here. i’ll be completely honest with you, i’ll tell u the story of my whole life. from there.. you are the one who should decide.. not me.. but for now.. gosh.. i miss you bad.. and i humbly apologize for what i said.. people react stupidly when they are pissed..”
You hurt me so bad. And now you want me back in your life again. Stop kidding us all love. You never really wanted this as much as i did.
